The replacing should with could thing really helped. I had a wonderful day and didn't feel guilty about what I did't get done.
I noticed that I don't judge people very often. Usually I only negatively judge someone for laziness. I have one friend who refuses to even think about applying for college scholarships. She says "I'll have my mom help me." Not only is she not going to use scholarships to pay for college, but she won't use student loans either. I know she is smart enough to know that her family can't afford that. Not when they are still helping her brother through college. It's just laziness, and I hate it.
I hate it so much because that's what I wish I could do.
Sometimes I can be lazy. I feel bad about it after. I know I will be lazy in the future. I'm scared for the day when I realize I don't need to work so hard. We call it senioritis. It hasn't started to hit anyone I know yet, but we're still only in the 2nd quarter of the school year.
I hope your lazy shadow finds some time to rest - you are a real dynamo, no wonder your shadow is tired! :)
ReplyDeleteI just read about your not doing the driving test. You'll do it when you are ready and the time is right. Once someone told me when I was worried about failing something that it would be fine if I passed, and it would be fine if I failed. That it would all work out somehow in some way I couldn't foresee. I don't know if that helps you, but it totally helped me at the time and I often think of that comment now, even years later.