Saturday, April 18, 2009


Thursday night I got some wonderful news that really made my week. Some of my friends had created a facebook group called House of Flair. I first met this amazing group of friends when I was about 13 and playing on Neopets. When we got bored with that website we tried to move the HoF group. But members dwindled, people got busy, and even though we friended each other of facebook we all pretty much stopped talking. We all should have thought of a facebook group sooner, but I'm just glad someone did! I've been missing the fun we used to have, even if it was only through online discussions. They helped me to harness the creativity I have. When we began talking again I instantly felt a new wave of inspiration hit me. I think it's the beginning of a wonderful change.

That night, I wrote this poem.

Inspiration (Flair)
By: Tori

It gleams around every corner;
A firefly glowing, a bumblebee buzzing.
The simple things in life that keep you going.

I never thought I really had it,
So I never thought I could really miss it.
Until I did.

One day it just seemed to up and leave me.
I was on the beach high and dry,
All dressed up with no place to go.

I struggled to find it.
It seemed to me that I never would.
But I was wrong.

Because it’s bigger than a dinosaur!
It’s everywhere and nowhere.
It’s nothing and everything.

I found it at last when I realized it was never really gone.
It was inside and outside.
I’ve always had it,
Because that’s just who I am.

My change of mental status is also provoking outward change. I'm leaving for college in 5 short months, so I knew this was coming. I doubt I could start a new chapter of my life without the stress and awkwardness of change. I am preparing myself mentally for getting my license and a real job. I am going to get the junky car my grandpa gave me fixed up. I am going to go through my clothes and get rid of the things I don't wear, then find some new clothes. I am going to get the haircut I've been wanting to get for months.

It's all going to happen, but today is just another busy day off to a bad start. I was woken up early by the annoying bird flying repeatedly into my window, my parents won't stop bickering over stupid stuff, and I'll be babysitting the sweetest, but most active, two-year-old in the world for most of the day. Not to mention I started coming down with a cold yesterday. Ah well, Rome wasn't built in a day, and I guess change comes slowly.

Thursday, April 16, 2009

See You Saturday

Even though there is so much I want to write about right now, I am running late. After school my sister and I went to watch our cousin get a tattoo, and we just got home a little while ago! I'll have a poem that I wrote last night to share with you all on Saturday when I get back on the computer. I am following suit with Mrs. B. and not coming on the computer tomorrow for the Day of Silence. See you Saturday!

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Signs of Spring: Prom Dress, Being Outside, & Tree Buds!

I finally feel like posting and have the time to do so! I've either been too busy or just not in the mood to blog the past few days.

Last Friday I went prom dress shopping. I had a great time, and trying on dresses really just improves a girls mood. My mom, aunt, cousin, and the store workers just kept throwing dresses into the room for me to try on. Who can be in a bad mood after trying on dresses for an hour? Not me. I finally decided on this dress, though. I love it! I feel like a fairy in it. ^^ And the best part is that it fits perfectly- no alterations needed!

And here's a close up of the bead work. It's beautiful.

Easter was a roaring success on Sunday. The kids loved the egg hunt! There was so much food, which is common when my family gets together. It's all about feeding everyone who walks thru the door. Holidays with my family are always wicked fun. =)

The weather has been beautiful the past few days! When I come home from school I sit outside, eat an apple, read, and get as much of my work done as I can outside. Today I did 90% of my homework on the steps. xD When I finally do come upstairs I look out my window and see this.

A budding tree. Is there anything nicer? I get to watch as, over time, the buds grow into leaves. It won't be too much longer!