Saturday, February 21, 2009

Day One of Vacation

Hello from Walt Disney World! So far my vacation has been a blast. Yesterday we spent half the day travelling here, then the afternoon in the Magic Kingdom. Even though I'm having fun in the happiest place on earth, I think I'd be more excited if I weren't sick. I caught a cold right before we came. I've got some medicine, so it isn't as bad as it could be.

Here is the link to my first day's worth of pictures. I'm using photobucket to share the pics with you. I'll give you today's pics tomorrow. We spent today in Hollywood Studios. Tomorrow I think we're going to EPCOT.

Thursday, February 19, 2009

See Ya!

I am just about to finish packing up everything before we head to the hotel. We're taking the plane to Disney tomorrow morning! I just wanted to post a last message before I'm off.

I may not have the time I usually have to read and post. I'll try to show pictures as often as possible, though! <3 Tori

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Thank You & Poetry

First- I want to thank people for the wonderfully supportive comments yesterday! Encouraging words like those keep me reassured that I'm on the right track. I love my path, and I really love all the amazing people I'm meeting on it. ^-^ So thank you! Even if you are reading, but not commenting, thank you! It's a comfort to know that my words are being read. Putting my thoughts and fears out there is one thing, having people hear them is another. Extending <3 to all of you!

Now I'm going to babble on about poetry.

I don't fully understand what it is about poetry, but it is one of my favorite things. It's like my brain just has a way of understanding the words. I pick up the 'vibrations' of the poems I guess you could say, because even if the words make no sense I can still get the poem. This probably has something to do with being an empath.

I recently wrote this poem for my AP English class. I think that poetry probably has all four elements buried inside it, this was my way of recognizing the water element. It surprises me that water was the element that jumped out at me, because I don't feel a special connection to water. Maybe this is a way for me to start building that connection.


Poetry could be seen as getting swept up into a river.
It’s too late to get out- all you can do is go with the flow.

This is never easy, though. The current can pull you along at times,
demanding more than you believe you can possibly give.
It can almost drown you. Then it gets gentle and evens out.
You think “How nice, I’m safe!”

Then you hit the waterfall. This is white water that you can never get out of alive.
It sucks you into it and never lets you go!
You can’t recover from these poems. You are absorbed by them.

They can change you so wholeheartedly,
that it is difficult to know if you are even the same person.

Monday, February 16, 2009


In spite of all my complaining to people that I never get to go out and do the things normal teens do, I now realize WHY that is. I'm not programmed for it. Other things are just more important in my life than staying up late, then getting up early the next day and being so grumpy that I bite people's heads off at the slightest irritation.

This past week I was just trying to do too much. I had homework in every class, a flower sale to help plan, a dance to help with, then friends I felt obligated to hang out with. I was off my normal sleep schedule, and I don't deal with that well. xD I missed out on focusing my attention on the things I find important. They might not be the things normal teenagers find important, but I think I'd rather embrace this oddity about myself than work against it. I like doing yoga, meditating, reading, learning about myself, and thinking about my path. The thing is- all work and no play makes Tori a dull, unhappy, girl with no friends. I have them, and I love doing things with them, I just can't keep up half the time!

I can't wait until Friday. I'll be heading for Disney World! I need this vacation. My body was sending me signals all last week to slow down, and, even though I heard them, I just kept ignoring them. No more! I need to sit and think about what I am willing to do if this keeps happening. What will I be willing to change or give up? I'm not sure yet. All I know is last week was not a happy one, and I don't need more like it. I should probably stop procrastinating on my homework and go do it now. xP