In spite of all my complaining to people that I never get to go out and do the things normal teens do, I now realize WHY that is. I'm not programmed for it. Other things are just more important in my life than staying up late, then getting up early the next day and being so grumpy that I bite people's heads off at the slightest irritation.
This past week I was just trying to do too much. I had homework in every class, a flower sale to help plan, a dance to help with, then friends I felt obligated to hang out with. I was off my normal sleep schedule, and I don't deal with that well. xD I missed out on focusing my attention on the things I find important. They might not be the things normal teenagers find important, but I think I'd rather embrace this oddity about myself than work against it. I like doing yoga, meditating, reading, learning about myself, and thinking about my path. The thing is- all work and no play makes Tori a dull, unhappy, girl with no friends. I have them, and I love doing things with them, I just can't keep up half the time!
I can't wait until Friday. I'll be heading for Disney World! I need this vacation. My body was sending me signals all last week to slow down, and, even though I heard them, I just kept ignoring them. No more! I need to sit and think about what I am willing to do if this keeps happening. What will I be willing to change or give up? I'm not sure yet. All I know is last week was not a happy one, and I don't need more like it. I should probably stop procrastinating on my homework and go do it now. xP