Friday, December 18, 2009

Dun, Dun, Duuuuun.

I am alive! Just thought I'd post to let you all know that. I ended up going home last weekend, the roads were fine on my drive down. Unfortunately it started snowing like mad on my way back up. Just my luck, right? I am going home tonight after classes. We haven't had snow in a couple days so the roads are okay to drive on. My Christmas break is all next week!

My birthday was great! The best day I had all week in fact.

The reason I haven't been on is due to more confusing boy problems. They should be over soon. I'll just say that I let myself like a guy when I knew he didn't feel the same way. Stupid me.

Things will probably be close to back to normal when I get back to school. I don't want to be as shy as I was before all the boy issues, because that certainly wasn't helping me at all. I am trying to be more outgoing. The problem is I'm no good at it. And I'm scared of opening up to people and getting hurt.

I'll be sure to post some cheery holiday things when I'm home! Along with pictures of the house! A week away from classes is just what I need right now.

Edit from home: no cheery holiday stuff yet! Just this- that crazy boy drama may not go away after all. He says it isn't that he doesn't like me, it's that his plans for the future and my plans for the future are so different. He says it wouldn't be fair. I need to figure some stuff out.

Oh, and we're still not done moving stuff from the old house to the new house. Tomorrow is going to be a busy day with lots of cleaning and rearranging.


  1. Oh, Tori - boy problems!! Sympathetic noises & offerings of hot chocolate!
    His comment on having different plans - is so important! I hope you're able to allow yourself (& him!) to move on - know that you deserve to be cherished & to be with someone whose path IS aligned with your own!

    A fav. relationship book is 'Be Your Own Dating Service,' by a counselor (Nina Attwood) whose clients kept asking how to make GOOD relationship chices. She realized lots of books tell you how to 'get' a guy (or gal) but not how to determine if they're a good match. There's a pyramid with 'shared values/equal desire for relationship' as the bottom (most important) layer - with smaller parts alocated to compatible emotionally, mentally & physical attraction (spiritual connection is part of shared values)
    I WISH I'd read a book like that when I was first in relationships - it might have helped me avoid some heartache & going down some pretty strange paths!
    Her second book, 'Date Lines' is also good - 'from 'hello' to 'I do' - about paying attention to how & what you're communicating. She comments that in one relationship, they traced the 'beginning of the end' back to their third date! & if they'd listened to each other, would have probably blessed each other, & gone seperate ways.

    Not easy to do, but looking back, I've often wondered why I slogged through *that* relationship!

    GOOD LUCK - & Happy Holidays! I helped plan a Solstice Ritual for Monday, & will be playing my harp for it.

  2. Glad you are safe and sound. And that you have a nice holiday off school coming up! That will be nice.

    Find your confidence! Not everyone will be nice, but not everyone will hurt you either. It's a journey.

    Blessed Yule!

  3. Happy b-day, Tori!! Glad that you had a great one! Wish you everything beautiful on your way! :o)

    Boys issues... *issues* Been there... Don't take it too seriously, there will be some more in your life, and I'm sure in time you'll be more confident and less shy, life teaches how! :o)

    Kisses form us! Blessed Yule to you tomorrow!

  4. Hope you had a wonderful Yule!

    As for the boy issues...well, we've all been there. Just try not to let it overwhelm you. Thinks will work out as the Goddess meant for them to...

    Glad your birthday was great!