Today my cousin and I were downtown getting lunch and we stopped into this cool little store. The have a lot of interesting things there, most of them made of different types of stone. As a gift, my cousin told me to pick out one of the pendulums I have been eying for months but never bought. I picked out this beauty.
I love it! I have been playing around with it since I got it. I think I have finally found my favorite divination tool. As much as I like that tarot deck I got, tarot is a bit difficult for me.
I wish I could say that things have been going well, but they haven't. One of my classes completely depresses me every time I have it. Everything this teacher tells us is telling me I don't have what it takes to make it in this field. That I just shouldn't be here. It feeds my doubts and fears. It's all I can do to not cry in the middle of class. I don't know what to do about it.
I have also just been down in general. As much as I really hate saying it, it was because of that boy I like. It makes me angry that I let something so stupid hurt me so much. It was definitely not a good experience for me. I opened up to someone and ended up hurt. Hopefully I can just learn something from it and move on.
The cherry on top is this stubborn cold I have. I'd really just like it to go away so I can try to have some fun this weekend. Or not, you know, whatever works for the rest of the universe.
Wow! Sorry to be such a downer. I'm going to shower and take some NyQuil.
Hang in there sweetie - it's hard to be "up" when you are sick. College can be really overwhelming too. I'm sure you are doing fine, but if you are worried, can you talk to a school counsellor, or someone who can help you decide if your course-load is appropriate?
ReplyDeleteI love the pendulum! I have a Carnelian one similar to yours. It's hard to tell in the pic what it's made out of - is it Aquamarine or Celestite, or...? Gorgeous, whatever it is!
I'm sorry you're feeling a bit down at the moment. I don't know the details of your boy problems, but I do want to say this: I think that sometimes you have to take the risk and open up to someone. You might end up getting hurt, but you might not, and if you never try then you'll never know. My problem is that I never open up to people, and so nothing in my life ever changes. Like you said, at least you've learnt something from your experience and you will be stronger for it!
ReplyDeleteDon't listen to your teacher when he makes you feel like you don't have what it takes. If you love what you're doing then you do have what it takes. So prove it.
Anyway, I hope you had a wonderful new year!
I'm sorry you're feeling down. Hopefully by now you're back up again. :)
ReplyDeleteThose darn boys, don't let them get to you!
As for your pendulum...that is just BEAUTIFUL! What is it? Green Adventurine? I love how it looks sparkley.
Happy 2010!
Hugs honey! I hope things will get better soon. :)
ReplyDeleteThat course will be over and the bitter teacher will be out of your life. Don't let his/her dark perspective coat your sunshine!
As of the boy... oh honey... we've all been there and how. You are lovely inside and out. :)
I'm so sorry that you've been hurt! And that teacher is horrid. Students need motivation. That's not right!
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