What The New Year Brings- 2010

I finally have a little free time! So, like I did last year, I am going to tell what numerology has to say for the new year. Both in general and for me specifically.

2010 breaks down to the number 3. 2010 is a year for change. But while change usually brings chaos and fear, 2010 is a year of optimism. Everyone can see that after 2009 we could use some big changes!

My personal year for 2010 is 2. This means that it will be a year of patiently waiting to see my plans from 2009 develop. It is a year for cooperation and involving others in my plans. There is a focus on relationships in a 2 personal year.

I can already feel that this is going to be an interesting year! 2 just feels 'right'. Especially that last bit about relationships. That boy who was driving me nuts and confusing that crap out of me? We're finally dating. :)

Sorry this is so short. My mind can't focus on one thing for very long lately. Plus I'm tired. I hope everyone had a great New Year's Eve!

Show and Tell- With Updates

Early Happy New Year to everyone! Tomorrow I'll be heading back home to celebrate. I didn't plan to go back home this weekend, but my cousin needs help moving. Besides, I still have no real friends up here.

Today my cousin and I were downtown getting lunch and we stopped into this cool little store. The have a lot of interesting things there, most of them made of different types of stone. As a gift, my cousin told me to pick out one of the pendulums I have been eying for months but never bought. I picked out this beauty.


I love it! I have been playing around with it since I got it. I think I have finally found my favorite divination tool. As much as I like that tarot deck I got, tarot is a bit difficult for me.

I wish I could say that things have been going well, but they haven't. One of my classes completely depresses me every time I have it. Everything this teacher tells us is telling me I don't have what it takes to make it in this field. That I just shouldn't be here. It feeds my doubts and fears. It's all I can do to not cry in the middle of class. I don't know what to do about it.

I have also just been down in general. As much as I really hate saying it, it was because of that boy I like. It makes me angry that I let something so stupid hurt me so much. It was definitely not a good experience for me. I opened up to someone and ended up hurt. Hopefully I can just learn something from it and move on.

The cherry on top is this stubborn cold I have. I'd really just like it to go away so I can try to have some fun this weekend. Or not, you know, whatever works for the rest of the universe.

Wow! Sorry to be such a downer. I'm going to shower and take some NyQuil.

Back To School

I'll be heading back to Montpelier in a few hours. I am riding up with my cousin because my car is in the shop. Something is wrong with the windshield wiper gears. It's a part that is going to cost over $100. That, plus the oil change and the inspection is going to cost me about $250! I am just lucky my cousin can bring me back up to school, no way I can drive around in the middle of winter without windshield wipers.

I am really glad to be going back to school. I love my family, but they drive me insane. A week home is more than enough. Especially with all this stress from moving into a new house and the holidays. I think I am going to come home less often. I feel as if I am missing out on something by not being on campus during the weekends. Plus it will give me a chance to be a bit more focused. When I'm home I don't have the chance to do homework if I have any.

I hope everyone had a happy holiday! We had a great time both Christmas Day and Christmas Eve. Lots of food, family, and laughs. My two big gifts were a GPS and an iPod adaptor for my car. Both of which I can't use until I get my car back! xD

Here's to hoping that things are a lot less complicated when I get back to school. It's unlikely, but I can hope. I'm sorry I have been posting so rarely!

Happy Yule!

Happy Yule everyone! I am wicked busy here at home with all the unpacking. I've been procrastinating on it a lot because I'd rather hang out with my friend for a few days before things get even crazier. They also stuck me with a bunch of homework that I need to work on at some point. I promised holiday cheer, though! And finally I have a picture of my new room. It is so unorganized right now.



Some of my personal decorations I managed to get up today.


My room- wicked messy! I've still got lots of unpacking and organizing to do.


LEON makes a return.


My mom even has her Mickey Mouse X-mas town out.


Tree! Fake, but decorated.


Lights!



Okay- no joke we would sing this song every year in my music class in elementary school. It doesn't feel like Christmas time if I don't hear it.

Tia and I are watching Santa Baby 1 and 2 on TV right now. I'm glad I finally get to watch my Christmas movies! I'm going to watch at least one a day all week.

Dun, Dun, Duuuuun.

I am alive! Just thought I'd post to let you all know that. I ended up going home last weekend, the roads were fine on my drive down. Unfortunately it started snowing like mad on my way back up. Just my luck, right? I am going home tonight after classes. We haven't had snow in a couple days so the roads are okay to drive on. My Christmas break is all next week!

My birthday was great! The best day I had all week in fact.

The reason I haven't been on is due to more confusing boy problems. They should be over soon. I'll just say that I let myself like a guy when I knew he didn't feel the same way. Stupid me.

Things will probably be close to back to normal when I get back to school. I don't want to be as shy as I was before all the boy issues, because that certainly wasn't helping me at all. I am trying to be more outgoing. The problem is I'm no good at it. And I'm scared of opening up to people and getting hurt.

I'll be sure to post some cheery holiday things when I'm home! Along with pictures of the house! A week away from classes is just what I need right now.

Edit from home: no cheery holiday stuff yet! Just this- that crazy boy drama may not go away after all. He says it isn't that he doesn't like me, it's that his plans for the future and my plans for the future are so different. He says it wouldn't be fair. I need to figure some stuff out.

Oh, and we're still not done moving stuff from the old house to the new house. Tomorrow is going to be a busy day with lots of cleaning and rearranging.

End of Week Update

I am still loving my classes! Most of them are a ton of fun. I'm still working on trying to figure out a method for all the homework, especially the readings I have to do. I can't read the chapters two days before class and still remember them, but I hate procrastinating.

I am planning on celebrating my birthday this weekend! Technically it isn't until Monday, but I have plans for pizza and a movie to celebrate. That's if I ever get home! We got hit with at least a foot of snow in the past 3 days, and it's still coming. The road conditions are terrible and because I am such an inexperienced driver I do not plan to put myself in a situation where I could get into an accident. I am hearing stories from classmates about accidents on the highways, being pushed into a guardrail from the strong winds, and a half hour drive taking 1 1/2 hours. No thanks!!

My parents are moving into the new house this weekend. I'd like to be there to help them with it all. Although I really hate packing and moving and it can only be worse in the snow. So if the weather didn't clear up and I couldn't get home this weekend I probably wouldn't cry about it. I've heard the weather is supposed to clear up tomorrow morning, so if it does I can head out then.

If you've been following me on Twitter you can see that I have been confused and nervous and you may have even induced that it is due to some boy issues. I'm not going to talk about it, but I'll just say that I'm taking things as they come right now.

My stomach is growling so I am going to go and hope that the cafeteria has something edible for lunch. I went out to eat at The Grill and had a kick-ass burger and fries yesterday!

Lots of Updating!

Confident. Happy. Inspired. These are three words that can explain how I'm feeling right now! My new classes are amazing. There are some boring points, but overall they are very upbeat and fun. Many of my teachers have lot of passion for the subjects they're teaching. I swear it makes all the difference in the world. When my teacher is passionate it inspires me and makes me want to be passionate. It makes me want to try harder and learn more. I've been to almost every single one of my classes at least once. There is only one class I have not had yet, and I have it tomorrow afternoon. I am really enjoying them all, though. It's very surprising. I feel foolish for being so nervous, but at the same time I know that being nervous is just a part of how I deal with change. I am not sure which class is my favorite so far. Maybe Spanish. The teacher is from Costa Rica (I think) and he's a lot of fun to learn from. He talks with his hands a lot and he encourages us all to do our best by giving us positive feedback and working personally on our weak points. I think it is easier for me than expected because I took 4 years of French, and the languages are very similar.

I have to say I never thought I would love being in class so much. My only concern is that I still feel knots in my stomach whenever I think about being in my lab class where I actually need to interact with customers. The knots dissolve as soon as I'm in class, but beforehand I work myself up thinking of all the possible things that I can do wrong. It's just frustrating, and something I need to work through.

I love how small my class is. There are only 6 of us! We are all going to know each other really well by the end of these 6 months. We're doing a lot of team building type activities, and it's wonderful. I feel so accepted. It's so different from high school where we all grew up together so they saw that stupid little kid I used to be. These people don't see that kid. Maybe that's why guys are actually starting to be interested in me? It's a strange feeling. Of course, not knowing much about the people I go to school with has got its drawbacks. I was eating dinner in the cafeteria talking with this guy and somehow we got on the topic of tattoos. I show him mine, and he starts in on the stereotypical crap. "Oh, it's evil. Do you cast spells? Blah, blah, blah." Not really in a mean way. But, still, I took it negatively. I should have expected it and dealt with it in a better way, but it still takes my by surprise when someone says something like that. I'm glad I don't have classes with this person, because I don't like him very much.

It's snowing here! Second real snowfall of the year. While I was walking to dinner I couldn't help but stare up at the sky. Falling snow is so beautiful. I just wish it wouldn't fall on my car...

I'll try to read blogs soon! I think Thursday and Friday will have to be my catchup days.

Why I Love December

So, now that I know what my real class schedule for December is, I have to say that I am excited about this month. I say October is my favorite month because of the weather, the colors, the food, and Halloween. But December just makes me happy. I'm not a big fan of the cold, but snow is very pretty when it first falls. And I'll never be able to forget how beautiful ice can be after last year. I haven't driven in ice or snow yet, so that may change my tune. xD I have a lot of reasons to love December, though. My birthday. My sister's birthday. (Which is Tomorrow! I can't believe she'll be 14.) Christmas music, movies, decorations and lights. Not to mention the fact that it is the one month of the year everybody is focused on giving. This message is spread everywhere and every way all month long. It's fantastic!

You know that feeling the day after a big holiday, like Thanksgiving? It's like a balloon deflating. There is such a build up, just waiting for the big day. The day after is such a disappointment, so you start looking forward to the next time you can feel that euphoria again. After Thanksgiving that time is Christmas. It's a few days of pure happiness, focused around family. And this year for school we have the whole week (from the 21st to the 25th) off! My parents are planning on moving into our new house before Christmas, so I know it's going to be a busy month. I can't wait to be in our new home, though. Christmas cheer should help get rid of that off feeling the house has.

December Schedule

I swear, only at NECI do they screw with schedules this much. Apparently they have us on a different schedule for December than for the rest of Mod 2. So for just this month (the whole 3 weeks we actully have classes!) this is my schedule.

Monday:
Spanish 8-9:30
Written Expressions 9:45-11:45
Taste & Flavor Beverages 12:30-3:00
Interpersonal Communciations 3:15 - 5:15

Tuesday:
Introduction to Human Resource Management 8:30-10:15
Restaurant & Guest Management Practicum 10:30-3:00
Fundamentals of Marketing 3:15-4:45

Wednesday:
Spanish 8-9:30
Restaurant & Guest Management Practicum 10:30-3:00
Service Operations Management 3:15-5:45

Thursday:
Introduction to Human Resource Management 8:30-10:15
Restaurant & Guest Management Practicum 10:30-3:00
Interpersonal Communciations 3:15 - 5:15

Friday:
Restaurant & Guest Management Class 8:30-10:15
Restaurant & Guest Management Practicum 10:30-3:00
Written Expressions 3:15 - 5:15

Of course I didn't find this out until after I got to class this morning. Good thing I have Spanish at the same time and in the same place.

I am feeling a mixture of excitement, fear, exhaustion and hunger. Excitement and fear over my new classes, exhaustion and hunger because it's been a long day! Denis let us out of class early today, though, so luckily I get to go brave dinner at the cafeteria.

I have another post being planned in my head right now, I'll write it after dinner.

Free Day!

After being at our soon to be new home for 5 days straight it is finally Monday! Monday means Mom and Dad have work, Tia has school, but Tori still has two days free. Hooray! My plans for today are as follows:

1. Blogging
2. Finish making X-Mas cards
3. Sew pillow cases for myself and Tia
4. Clean the house up
5. Prep for dinner
6. Go to Walmart for the millionth time this week because my dad needs cough syrup
7. Finish re-reading Twilight
*8. Watch Phantom of the Opera and Aladdin with Tia

Is it sad that this is a fun day for me? That this is how I am choosing to spend my day? I don't care. I take joy in the small things in life. Like last night; watching cartoons with Tia until we were both tired and then still sitting up together laughing and ogling Johnny Depp in the new People. Yes, I bought it just for the pictures of Johnny Depp. It is well worth the five bucks I spent on it. But, anyway, that was a good night. It is what I miss most while I'm at school.

One thing I will not miss while at school is working on the new house. I'm sick of painting walls. I'm sick of cleaning up after the gross people who lived there before. I'm so glad this is the last time we're moving! My parents have always rented, and we've moved around town a lot. Like every 2-3 years. Now that they're buying a house it's the end of it. My room is still not completely painted, so you'll have to wait a while longer for pictures. I picked bright colors! My room is orange and blue. I needed to contrast the dull boring colors my parents picked for the rest of the house. Tia's room is my favorite, though. We splatter painted her room! It looks awesome.

I am going to turn on CMT and work on the Christmas cards. Oh, they've been playing Christmas music on my favorite radio station all weekend, and now it's on CMT too! That actually makes me happy. I love X-Mas music. One of my favorites that they played on the radio this weekend was 'Leroy the Redneck Reindeer'. It just makes me laugh every time I hear it!

* Number 8 is my favorite and what I'm looking forward to the most. I've been wanting to watch POTO for a while now. And watching it with Tia is even better. It took me more than a year to get her to watch it for the first time! And we have both had the Arabian Nights song stuck in our heads since last night so we want to watch Aladdin. I love watching movies with Tia. <3