Monday, January 25, 2010
Advice?
What is your stance on doing things that you might regret later?
I am having a lot of conflicting emotions and thoughts lately. I desperately need someone to talk to, but the one person who knows the situation is the one person I probably shouldn't talk to about it. No, I take that back- I should talk to them, just not until after I figure some things out.
I asked a teacher what she thought about doing things you might regret. Her response? Think about it more, because that means you might be doing something against what you believe is right. What about when I don't know what I believe is right?
Come to think of it I really respect this teacher, maybe I'll ask if I can talk to her about the situation that is distressing me so much. She would probably understand, and I know she wouldn't talk to anyone else about it. I can't trust any of my peers to not talk about it with others. A sad situation, but true.
I can guarantee that if asked most of my peers would also say that I need to live life to it's fullest and just be happy while I can. But what if that means being hurt later? Not thinking ahead gets you in trouble. But it also prevents you from having fun.
It's taking a lot to not cry right now. My cousin is sitting across the room from me, and I don't even feel comfortable talking to her about this. I need an outside opinion.
Thursday, January 21, 2010
A Million Things Running Through My Mind
•Working on the Fundamentals of Marketing slideshow
•Looking up info for my Taste & Flavor Beverages paper (herbal liqueurs)
•Writing my diario for Espanol
•Writing an editorial about capital punishment (Why is this even an assignment?!)
•Working on the final project for Human Resources
•Reading part 3 of How to Win Friends for Interpersonal Communications
•Reading chapter 10 in the Interpersonal Communications textbook
Other (productive) things I could be doing:
•Coming up with a good argument for the debate I was having with my Human Resources teacher this morning (He doesn’t believe in situational ethics, he says it’s always black or white. I disagree!)
•Reading Setting the Table (this book is so informative! I love it!)
•Studying my Visual Food Lover’s Guide (I’m brushing up on my product ID)
•Writing something cool for the new school paper thing coming out soon
This blog post is proof that I chose to do none of these things. Instead I’m thinking about:
•This stupid cold sore I’ve got
•Worrying about catching this flu that’s going around
•How much longer I’m going to procrastinate before I actually do any of my homework
•If I’ll find anything to do this weekend
•Why I have no money to do anything
•If this guy, Cam, likes me or if he’s just being nice
•If I’d give Cam a chance if he ever did ask me out
•If I like my new haircut or not (I really can’t decide)
•How unhealthy I’ve been eating
•That I haven’t been exercising at all
•That I haven’t been keeping up with everyone’s blogs (sorry!)
•That I still haven’t written that email to Emma yet (sorry Bet!)
•That I said I was going to be social, but even though I’ve had every night free I’ve been a lame-o sitting in my room by myself because I’m too chicken
•How happy I am that I think I can finally be just friends with Aaron ((aka that guy) I mean there’s no avoiding him. I see him all the time! Friendship is a lot less awkward and sad.)
•That I want to smash my laptop with a hammer because it is a POS
Yeah. I have a lot of stuff running through my mind. Not quite a million things, but a lot. Sometimes I wonder why I can’t just turn my brain off.
Update:
Here are the pictures of my new haircut! I don't think I like it down, but I definitely like it up. It came out shorter than I wanted. =/
Sunday, November 22, 2009
Randomness
Another awesome thing I've heard about recently is failblog. Absolutely hilarious! If you want a laugh, go there.
Last random thing I want to share with you is this song. 3 Wooden Crosses has been a favorite song of mine for a while. It never fails to make me think and feel that there is a higher purpose for why things happen. Have you ever gotten that tingly feeling when you hear something (anything, not just songs) and you know it's teaching you something and helping you grow as a person? This song gives me that feeling.
Monday, November 16, 2009
"Don't Let The Bedbugs Bite!"
Part of my cleaning this afternoon will be looking for bedbugs. The dorm building next door had them, now someone on the floor above me has them. I'm really creeped out and if I find them in my room I am probably going to scream. I can tell you I won't be sleeping in my bed, either! Someone I know back home is an exterminator and he lent me a 16X magnifying glass to look for them, and even gave me a picture of the little nasty things. Which grossed me out even more. When "Don't let the bedbugs bite!" becomes a real warning I start to worry. I didn't think bedbugs were real when I was a kid. I thought they were something my grandma made up to joke with us. Like her pink skippawampus that lived in the woods behind the house.
Oh, and did I ever mention how much I absolutely LOVE lists? To-do lists save my butt. I would forget so many things lately if I didn't write them down on my brightly colored sticky notes.
SO, today I am thankful for to-do lists.
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
When You Talk
I have been forgetting to say what I am thankful for! I have a lot of days to make up for, so how about I make a list?
Home
Family
Nice classmates
People who care
The good days
I've had this song stuck in my head for the past few days.
Toes by The Zac Brown Band
Oh and for those who want to know about my Baking class, it is probably the best class I've taken so far. We're in a kitchen getting a lot done, but it is not nearly as stressful as cooking theory was. I definitely prefer baking to regular cooking! If I had to choose between the two baking would win hands down. The homework for class is boring. We have to read certain chapters out of our text book and do a few math problems. The math is similar to what we need to do in class to change recipes, so it's actually useful. It's kind of cool to be putting math to good use.
So far I have been on 3 stations: quick breads, baker, and mixing. On the quick bread station we made coffee cake and scones, when I was baker I baked trays and trays of cookies, and today on mixing station we made 4 different kinds of bread dough. Did I forget to mention that we got a book when we came to NECI full of these amazing recipes? I have the recipes for everything they serve in the bakery and more. YUM!
Unfortunately I have the world's worst partner for this class. I do not like this guy. He is a jerk who thinks he knows everything about everything. He treats me like I'm stupid. He brown noses the teachers. Gah! I'm sorry, I just really don't like him. No one in our block does. I can't wait for this class to be over simply because I can't stand working with him.
I don't want to end this post on a bad note, so I am going to find something happy to write about! How about the fact that Thanksgiving is only a week away? Yeah! I am looking forward to Stuff Yourself With Turkey Day. I even have most of that week off from school.
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
I'm Alive! Sort Of...
Then yesterday (ugh this week is going by slowly!) my new class started. I'm in baking now! This is a fun class, but it has homework unlike the class I just finished. Plus I have all the homework for my other classes that I need to do. I have to write a resume/ cover letter, make an e-portfolio, and read my entire ServSafe coursebook. I've got it all down to a schedule, but it's still time consuming (I did homework for 3 hours straight last night, no break) and mentally exhausting. SO, by the end of the day I'm ready to just fall asleep. Which is good because I have class at 6:30 AM.
I just wanted to post to let you all know why I haven't been around, and why I may not be around much for the next 2 weeks. I have a lot to do both here at school and at home. My parents are buying a house. Finally! It needs a lot of work done to it, though, so I'll be doing painting, cleaning, etc. I hope everything is going well with everyone else. I'll try to read and comment on your blogs a bit.
Thursday, November 5, 2009
5 Thing I Love Right Now
So, 5 things I love right now are:
1- CRUNCH bars
2- Cough drops
3- The radio
4- Yarn
5- The ring I'm wearing
Do I even need a reason to love Crunch bars? They're delicious. I've got a cough now, so I'm carrying my big bag of cough drops with me. The radio because I was getting bored of the songs on my iPod. Yarn, well I can't crochet without it! I am kind of stuck on that now, too. I can make a chain, but I'm still trying to figure out how to make rows. xD I don't know why, but I really like this ring I'm wearing. My grandma gave it to me shortly before I left for college because it didn't fit her anymore. She got it from Sea World years ago.
On another note: Check out Suzie's Etsy Shop! She's created some beautiful pendants and necklaces and has added them there to keep her tarot card reading company.
Edit: I forgot to write what I was thankful for! I am definitely thankful for the internet. <3
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
Back at School- With Internet!
I am back at school now and, yes, I have internet again! It never really went away, my laptop just didn't want to connect to the wireless at home the last two days for some reason. Everyone else's computer was connecting just fine, but mind wouldn't. I was concerned, so I took it to my grandpa the computer genius. Of course there's nothing wrong with it and it connects just fine to the wireless there. My computer hates me.
I have decided to participate in the 27 Days of Thankful that Amanda at Serenity Now is putting on. Each day you say something you're thankful for. Since I don't post on my blog every single day I am planning on tweeting what I'm thankful for. Keep an eye out! Today I am thankful for medicine. My Dad and Tia have both caught a flu/cold of some sort. I have a slight cough on top of monthly crampy, achy, issues and a cold sore. I must say, having the ability to just buy something that makes me feel better is wicked awesome.
I won Creepy Cute Crochet from Irreference on the last day of Mrs. B's 31 Days of Halloween. Yay! I haven't crocheted since I was 12 so I am re-teaching myself. Once I get good at it I'm going to have a ton of fun with the book. Thank you Irreference! Thank you Mrs. B! I'll be sharing my crochet adventures here on my blog.
Suzie has decided to sell a tarot reading in her Etsy shop (which will be posted to my list of wicked awesome things you should check out ASAP). If you're brave enough to face what the cards truthfully have to tell you then go there!
I'm pretty sure there was more I wanted to say. Oh, right! I went to Borders over the weekend and bought myself a book to kick start my resolution of learning about herbs. I now own Herbal Remedies by Andrew Chevallier. It has a lot of good info and some amazing pictures! I'm only part way into it and I've already learned some cool things.
I have class soon. But it's just a lecture for me today, I've got lab tomorrow. I'm not sure if this is good or bad only because I don't know if I'll be feeling better or worse tomorrow. Fingers crossed that it's better!
Monday, September 21, 2009
More Updates & Things That Make Me Laugh
My cousin and I went to dinner last night at one of the NECI owned restaurants. It is much fancier than we are used to! I got venison, which really didn't taste like venison. The reason? It was farm raised. How weird is that?! It tasted more like beef, not gamey at all. It was actually disappointing. It's been forever since I had venison, and when I do get it it doesn't taste like I remember. I wasn't surprised that the meal wasn't like I expected, I haven't eaten much here at college that I have liked. Yeah it's a culinary school, but we eat in a cafeteria with crappy cafeteria food. And whenever I go to one of the NECI restaurants I leave slightly disappointed with the meal. I can't wait until I go home next weekend! I'm going to make food I like and eat at a restaurant or two that I know I like. Plus I'll get to see my family and pets.
With my free afternoon I plan on checking out the NECI website a bit to look more into the pre-authorized internship sights. Later we are going to go to dinner and to see Cloudy With a Chance of Meatballs. I hear it's a good movie.
Edit- Back from the movie theatre. Cloudy With a Chance of Meatballs is amazing!
Now, just because I feel like sharing some random things-
I am re-reading the Oh My Gods! comics right now. I know I posted about this comic strip a while ago, but I think it's amazing. The creator hasn't posted a new comic since March, but he's been busy. He plans on starting it up again as soon as he can. Until then, if you've never read them there are 2100 to read! The strip started back in 2002.
My cousin has Stephen Lynch songs stuck in my head. She listens to his songs all the time. They are not appropriate, but they are wicked funny!
And lastly, have you heard of Johnny the Homicidal Maniac? I haven't had the chance to read the comics, but I am dying to! Someone animated the first comic and put it on YouTube. I'm looking forward to December when my birthday and Christmas roll around, because the books will definitely be on my list.
Friday, July 24, 2009
Sharing Some Favorites
I heard this song a few weeks ago and loved it right away. It took me hours to find out the name of it so I could find the lyrics and a You Tube video.
I had this song stuck in my head for three days straight! It's a really cheesy video- but I love the song.
Books-
I know I just wrote two posts about books, but I read a lot. I found another author that I like. Her name is Melissa Marr. She wrote a book called Wicked Lovely, which is wicked awesome! It's about a girl named Ash who can see faeries. Though the ending seems rushed to me, I still really like how it turns out. Especially because there is a sequel! It's called Fragile Eternity. I am currently reading it in fact. I'm hoping to make it last me more than two days, which is why I'm not reading it right now. She also wrote another book called Ink Exchange. It's a companion novel to Wicked Lovely. She takes some of the secondary characters in Wicked Lovely and tells their stories. I haven't read it yet, but I can't wait to!
That's all for now. We're ordering pizza and I've got a friend coming over to hang out. Facebook is a great way to find something to do!
Sunday, July 5, 2009
Our Findings
I also found two books at the Salvation Army.
Then when we woke up this morning my mom and dad seemed to both be in bad moods so my mom and I went to a flea market to get out of the house. We found this! It holds our potatoes and onions. We were worried about finding a place for it, but it fits right next to the stove.
I also found this cool penny in a bottle.
Belated Happy 4th! Last night I made the non alcoholic version of Mrs. B's Sangria. It's good!
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
Random
I know I never blogged about it, but I was stressing all last week because last night was the NHS banquet for the new inductees. All the current members had to plan the ceremony and pot luck dinner. I was basically put in charge of the dinner, because they all know that I plan to become a restaurant manager and thought it would be good practice. It was! And it went perfectly. I am so glad it's done and over with, though. Now I can focus on my finals and graduation- which are quickly approaching. Finals begin on the 11th, and the graduation date is the 20th.
For anyone wondering about the banana bread recipe I talked about before, it can be found here.
I've been wicked busy with tons of different things lately. I'm going to be busy until the end of June! I still plan on participating in The Next Chapter's Wreck This Journal fun, starting on Friday! I did start wrecking my book a while ago, so I can simply post old pictures on my busy days.
And finally I'm going to end with this cool, fun, quiz Cynthia took and posted about on her blog.
You Are a Red Crayon |
Your world is colored with bright, vivid, wild colors. You have a deep, complex personality - and you are always expressing something about yourself. Bold and dominant, you are a natural leader. You have an energy that is intense... and sometimes overwhelming. Your reaction to everything tends to be strong. You are the master of love-hate relationships. Your color wheel opposite is green. Green people are way too mellow to understand what drives your energy. |
I took it twice because I thought it had it wrong, but I ended up with the same answer. It kind of makes me want to find that coloring book I have somewhere!
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Lots of Random Things
Mrs. B. posted about something really important over at her blog about the government possibly putting a ban on organic farming. There is no way I can word it as well as she did, so I'll just give you the link. Please check it out if you're interested!
Then Boho Mom posted this cool thing about a Fairy Name. This is mine-
I can't help but groan at the name. It's so girly. Ah well. Like Tia said "It's a fairy! Of course it's going to be girly! Even with the girly name, the fairy sounds cool. What are your fairy names?
I'll be posting a couple recipes in a minute. One for garlic parmesan pasta, which is has more basil in it than anything, and a fried rice.
Saturday, December 20, 2008
Let it Snow, Let it Snow, Let it Snow...
Even with the bad roads, and they are pretty bad, my dad took me and three other people to Keene today so I could get my tattoo. We waited outside for 20 minutes before we called the number for the tattoo parlour to ask where they were. The person we talked to was extremely rude to us, so we left. We went to another parlour that my cousin suggested, and made an appointment. Hopefully I will have my tattoo soon!
My parents are at a work Christmas party, so I am going downstairs to watch a movie- like I was supposed to yesterday.
Friday, December 12, 2008
Snow Day With No Snow
I said I would share the paper I wrote for my mythology class when I got it back. I got it back yesterday and made the corrections- so here it is! We were asked to write about our favorite myth or mythological being.
He became the god of wine. This seems appropriate, as it makes him even more complex. Wine can be both good and bad. Wine cheers people, but it also makes them drunk. Thus, Dionysus is a joyful, but also savage god. His double nature makes him beneficent and malevolent. At one time, he can make men merry and free; in another, drunk and brutal.
When people worship him, they do not go to a temple or to the wilderness, they go to a theatre. Beautiful poetry and plays have been written for Dionysus. The performances are considered sacred, and everyone involved in them engaged in an act of worship. He is a god of inspiration. Some comedies, and many tragedies, were written in honor of Dionysus.
Though his worshippers do not gather in wilderness to honor Dionysus, he is connected to the land in a way only a few others can relate to. As the god of the vine, he suffers with it. In winter, he dies and is reborn with the warmer weather. It is not surprising that Dionysus became a symbol for the strange cycles of death and rebirth.
His complexity and double nature made me pick Dionysus as my favorite mythological being. People can connect to him. No one is completely good or bad. We all bring happiness and tragedy to the world. I think of him as a hopeful and inspirational god, and a tragic brutal force.
Thursday, December 11, 2008
Things Are Looking Up!
So I've been home for over and hour and what have I accomplished- reading and commenting on blogs, and making my dreamboard. Tomorrow is the full moon and Sacred Suzie is doing her monthly dreamboard launching. It's a Gemini full moon, Suzie talked about it a bit on her blog.
We're all anticipating bad weather tonight, so I am keeping my fingers crossed for a snow day! A three day weekend on my birthday weekend, how perfect would that be? The only homework I have isn't due until the end of next week, so I doubt I'm even going to think about that. I am overall in a good mood. Time to go clean the house while listening to my music.
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
5 A Day
Here are my top five things to do every day (or every week) to stay mentally healthy:
- Blogging/ Journaling- Some people would put these as separate things, but for me they do the same. They allow me to release my thoughts and just write about whatever I want or need to write about. I find this really helpful when I am stressed or worrying. Lately I have felt that there aren't many people I can actually talk to about things, so blogging is important to me.
- Indulging- I allow myself to eat a few unhealthy things a day during the school week. On the weekends I give myself more room to interpret what is 'healthy'. If I am constantly worrying about my food I can't get other things done. If I didn't try to control it though, I would pig out on junk food all the time like I did as a kid. I think of this as a happy medium for myself.
- Listening to music/reading/watching TV- These are necessary! They let me relax and lose myself for a while. I can't imagine what I would be like if I didn't get to relax for even just a little while. I'd be a mess.
- Cooking- I love cooking. At least once a week I like to be able to make a real meal. It makes me feel... I don't know how to describe it. Accomplished? Looking at a meal I have just put together makes me feel wonderful.
- Making a mental list- I don't know if this is exactly good for me, but I always like to have a mental checklist of the things I need/want to do. If it gets overloaded, an alarm goes off and I start to feel like I did just a little while ago. That is when I need to take another look at the list and remind myself that it's all doable, and I'll be okay. If I didn't have this mental list I know I would be lost.
5 people I would like to tag for this-
- Mrs. B.
- Suzie
- Robyn
- Genie
- I am leaving this 5th spot open for whoever wishes to do this. I found it helpful to step back and look at what I actually do to help myself. I realized that I do most of those 5 things without even thinking about why.
Saturday, December 6, 2008
Giving What I Can
It's all food and toys for those boxes at school. I feel so good about finally doing this! Through the years I have been raiding our cupboards for a few cans to put in the box. This year I spent a bunch of money and bought bags of food. My Mom did help, luckily, because I think I got a little carried away. I picked two of the kids off the list at school to buy for. One was a 16-year-old boy who wanted puzzles. That big box has 10 puzzles in it. I also got a book of word searches, sudoku, and cross word puzzles. The other was a 1 1/2 -year-old boy. I got him 5 coloring books and a big box of crayons. We have no clue who these toys are going to, but I hope whoever they are loves them.
After shopping, my mom and I went to Pizza Hut where we had a really fun dinner. There was a problem with something in the back so we ended up waiting an hour to get our food. It gave us time to talk and just hang out. It was nice. If it had been a whole family out to dinner thing, there would have been some yelling and we probably wouldn't have had such a nice conversation with our waitress. I am so tired now with all the running around. I didn't have the chance to wreck my journal today. Hopefully I will have time tomorrow in between doing the homework I haven't had time to do.
Thursday, November 6, 2008
Award and Other Things!

I need to post 6 random things about myself and then pass the award on. Here are the rules:
1. Link to the person or persons who tagged you.
2. Post the rules on your blog.
3. Write six random things about yourself.
4. Tag six people at the end of your post and link to them.
5. Let each person know they’ve been tagged and leave a comment on their blog.
6. Let the tagger know when your entry is up.
Here are the 6 random things about me:
1- I like country music. If you listen to the random mixwit tapes I put up you may have noticed this. It's the music I grew up listening to, and it makes me comfortable.
2- I think pirates are wicked awesome. I dressed up as a pirate for Halloween for a reason. I am fascinated by them. The romanticized ones of course. You can't really idolize someone who robs and kills people.
3- I am a good student. I enjoy school, because learning things comes easily to me. I don't know why. It's very helpful though.
4- I am a klutz. I trip walking up the stairs. I trip walking on even ground. It's just how my feet work.
5- I have a bad memory. I don't remember a majority of my childhood. I forget things all the time. It's not a good quality.
6- I am afraid of needles. Not that random. A lot of people don't like needles. I cry when I get shots, and I chickened out of donating blood today. Maybe I'll go next month.
Thank you Aelwyn! I am only able to pass this on to 3 people. But I will pass this on to-
Nydia at Bringing up Salamanders
Angela at Inner Musings Of An Eclectic Pagan
Suzie at Suzie's Sacred Space
Next up is this unbelievably touching blog post. I had never even heard of prop. 8 before reading it. Go there and become informed!
Nydia has started her own Etsy Shop! Go here to learn more about that and her giveaway!
I have been so busy with Soul Coaching that I haven't really done any other kind of post. This weekend I will try to post something else. Maybe some poetry or a mixwit tape. =)
Thursday, October 30, 2008
Breast Cancer Awareness
Mrs. B tagged everyone who won something on her blog to join the Pink Sisterhood. I urge everyone to click every day to give women who need it a free mammogram. (You can click on the other links there and help others, too!)2. Add a link to the person who shared it with you.
3. Nominate at least 7 other blogs
4. Add your link to the list of participants below
5. Leave a message for your nominee on their blog.